Rhetoric..Reply?

Ironies. Not far and few. on contrary, often, frequent. its amazing how our lives are full of them. the words we play with. the ideas we conjure up in our sick,sick minds. there's a never ending list. and our conscience alone defines our limits to ironies we are able to accept and be perfectly fine with. sometimes, i believe that a person loses their face value when they become oblivious to their surroundings. they become callous, all bitter inside about everyone and everything around them. you know, i always say. why not make a friend than en enemy.

i prefer knowing people on friendly terms rather than get to know them unkindly. it isnt part and parcel of me. and it makes me very uncomfortable doing so. but if you force me, little choice am i left with, obviously i would have to reciprocate. there's a level which would blow. don't push it so much, my dear. it wont be nice. when i tell you nicely, dont mistake it for being hideous. i'm just warning you. i never scolded you. yes. although no names were stated. but still. the intention was there.

i know you wouldnt care about whatever i say. of course you wouldnt. who does? a nut will be a nut. hard to crack. never exposing its inner being. its gonna stay that way forever. sad, but really. you wouldn't budge. i dont know who you are. i probably would be shocked to find out, hence, i dont want to. all i can say is that if you wana defame others, flame others. go ahead. the world isnt a perfect place. i wouldnt bother tracing you. dont think its impossible. obviously its possible. but i wouldnt. whats in it for me anyway? ha.

i'm a person who forgives a lot easier than others. i hold less grudges and bitterness within. i hope. i'm not being conceited and boastful. there's nothing much to boast about. i'm just made this way. just like how i'm sensitive. and how i get shocked when people flame me. but still, what choice am i left with?

this disposition is a site where i pen my thoughts. if you displease, please leave. why even bother coming back to read a person's posts you hate? i never got a chance to find out who hated me so much when i was 15. but still, i hope that people dont hate me now. if you dont like me, come up to me straight with it. dont be all hypocritical. because if you're hypocritical, i am left with no choice but to be coy with you. and you didnt really like it, wont like it much should i continue huh.

so, all said and done.i hope that the dust settles and i dont see another anonymous or unknown tagger flaming me. thank you (:

False Pretence.

been a while.
someone very nice tagged my blog the other day. still wondering who'd be so courteous enough to not recognize me. awww. its okay. maybe sometimes your eyesight might fail you. or perhaps its the brain's ineffectiveness to function normally. oh poo.

anyway. i watched The Other Boleyn Girl. and it was traumatizing. it was one hell of a horrible movie. emotions kept running on high. and things didnt turn out very nicely. i love all three main actors/actressess. Natalie Portman, Scarlett Johansson, Eric Bana. awesome trio. and thats probably why i didnt like the ending. ha. anyways. it might be boring for many of you. i've learnt to appreciate such english movies.

ITB project has been hell. it is a horrid project. i hate it. and right now, as i'm slurping up my supper (yes, its slurp-able), i'm still thinking how to put the proposal together by tomorrow. sigh. absolutely irritable. to think this is only PBL1, is just perfectly comforting. (((: Interview tomorrow for Ambassadors again. thursday, meeting kiewu to go to town i think. sigh. friday project day again. oh my goodness. i think i'm starting to lose my life. lol.

Business Management for 4 hours, again, tomorrow. great. just what is missing from my bright, bright day. (: oh and anyways. the 2 pictures. the first one was the original picture. the second(black,dark,etc) was after editing(duh). hah. hope you like it. (:

lotsa love!

Fallen Short.

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

an old song. but still awesome and lovely. Sarah McLachlan captures beauty with her gentle and carefully coaxed voice. amazing what she does yes? "Fallen" is a song that i used to listen to when i was feeling a bit disoriented about many things in life. its nice to know that we have songs like this when the people around us are so oblivious to our phases. anyways. here it is.



rushed to finish e-portfolio. busy all the way. totally no time to even unwind. my weekends are turning into temporary weekdays. its very disappointing when you have so much that isnt working well in your life as it already is. sigh. i guess the world wont learn to accept how simple you are, because they will see it as mere simplicity. artless for practical reasons. how narrow minded the world is...

i am starting to wonder. is there more to life? something i've talked much about. think about it. not just superfically, but deeper. when we do things. do we do it because its a practice? or rather, do we just follow others. whats in doing it when there are tonnes of other things left to do? when you look into the sky(not singapore's), do you see stars that represent your life, and those around you? or do you just see a picture that painted a thousand words. words that you didnt bother to ponder over? that you're the only thing that affects others? words alone, determine your tone, body language, attitude. how are you gonna phrase it?