My Yesterday - That Desired Today.

November as a month draws its last days, and here i am again, reciting the occurences of this month that has brought much laughter, fun and its fair share of gruel. looking back, i could've changed many things, but what's dwelling on the past? looking forward at December, i'm excited for Christmas, but rather sad that it marks the end of the annual year, 2008. oh well, all good things must come to an end, right?

Christmas is so near! (okay, fine, its actually like a month away), but still, the decorations are up already! and i think they're really beautiful. serenity would a be a word to describe the true setting of christmas though... but we always make do with it right. just like that gate at CHIJMES! it reads "City Of Angels" if you cant make it out. :D

This is a video of Leona Lewis singing her new single live on The X Factor. Ths song is entitled "Run". it didnt catch my attention at all, but after i found out that it was a single, i sat down to analyze it. i think it is a truly beautiful song, and far more moving that "Bleeding Love" or "Better In Time". And trust me when i say it is harder to sing than those 2 songs, because you would've gone deaf if you heard me croon. :D

i think that Rihanna is a fantastic woman. she did a commercial for Gucci! HAHAH. you need to watch it! its quite good. haha. go check the Gucci store at Paragon. you'd see her there! :D

School has been a bit stressful, but now that the presentations are over, its about time to breathe for a second, before mugging for my Common Tests! its depressing to find out that LAW,FINANCE and ECONOMICS are consecutively arranged on the 9th to 11th of December. pfft. ever so sad. STATISTICS is on a SATURDAY. yes, a saturday. *rolls eyes 720 degrees*

if any of you watch America's Funniest Videos or any of those funny animal videos (okay, same right...fine.) then you might've seen this! haha. i just find it SO SO SO CUTE! :D haha. so here it is! 

OKAY END OF UPDATE! REDCAMP OUTING AT SENTOSA THIS SATURDAY,29TH! FROM 10AM ONWARDS. E-LEARNING NEXT WEEK, NO PHYSICAL LESSONS. MARCUS IS FALLING SICK. MARCUS IS ENDING HIS POST HERE. 

XOXO,

MARCUS!

That Moulded Sword.

hello people.

so, things have been going really fast. how time really flies because i'm already into my 7th week of school next week. and then it would be E-learning week and then common tests. absolutely fantastic. yippie. i'm just so excited for it. sarcastic much, because i can't wait for the Christmas season to arrive. :D

peaceful or not, some images that set within like the first picture above, really shows a calm and serene background which really makes you take a deep breath and say "i'm glad i'm here" and when troubles never cease to find you, you'd always dream of places like those. or well, it could be images like the one below. now, that aint that peaceful and obscure, but its therapeutic to look at, eh?

i wouldnt think anyone knows what i'm talking about. because i'm just merely ambiguously describing my vivid and wild ideas in the form of words and impressions on images. so yeah. anyways, here's another picture. :D

music update! Britney Spears' new album entitled "Circus" is set to be released on the 2nd of December, but has already leaked long ago! the album shows the 27 year old singer synthesizing less than on her "Blackout" album. her songs are wonderful, some of which are "Kill The Lights", "If You Seek Amy" and of course, "Womanizer". her next single is "Circus" and it isn't too bad! :D

here is the track for a listen, on YOUTUBE:

so anyways, before this weekend, there was REDCamp 5! so here to update you on some things is still me. duh right? anyways, i honestly wasn't very psyched to go for REDCamp but on Friday when i left NP, i was totally thrilled by what had happened. it was really really fun. those three days despite waking at 6, paid off in terms of fulfillment and satisfaction. here are some of the photos. 

so since i'm wearing blue, i should tell you about my tribe. Ninjas. the ninja's have always been really low-key. not exactly very loud. on the first day they were so soft when cheering that it sounded as if everyone had gone mute. but come the last day, this tribe officially was the LOUDEST! :D i'm glad to say that i'm proud to be a Ninja SL, and i'm really proud of my campers! they rocked the camp!! 

and lastly, here's a picture of me with Cheryl Chew! :D yay! haha. anyways, she has been a really nice SM for the tribe, even though they didnt get a chance to know her, like how i dont really know many campers, but they know me. thanks to my very loud St Gabriel boys shouting my name at the top of their voices. you guys were awesome as well :D

so so so. here it is. the end of my update. with this, common test is in 2 weeks and presentations start next week. its a Sunday night, and there's school tomorrow. i'm tired, very busy and very nervous. but here's a last bit. Georgia Brown. She holds the Guinness world record for the greatest voice range. in here she sings "Happy Day". quite jaw-dropping indeed! :D

all right. so thats all for today. thank you for reading! and please do tag to leave your mark! :D

xoxo,

Marcus. 

Confusion Hath Wracked.

No.
They don't know, and they will never know. For they are oblivious and nonchalant to matters when the heart is scalded, where the wounds are re-opened. Cut open, once and twice but the world will always hurt you, yet again.

A knife, a plunge, a pull.
seconds pass in derailed torment.
mind full of confusion, wrathed repeatedly.
a fool never becomes smarter, he remains.
once hurt twice shy. not this guy.
trying over and over again.
but, really. do they like you?
do they appreciate you?

i used to say, only when you lose something will you know how valuable it is. but sometimes, its just way too late to regret. appreciation. why is it so hard. gentle and caring. will anyone know what torture my mind hath unleashed upon a person so lone as me? perhaps you might know, but to feel what i have with who i am, is severely weakening.

when will it take to break me. for as long as i've known, i havent said that in a long time. it hurts, it burns, it kills. to be metaphorical, to live now is to die another day - in anguish. why is it i harbour feelings so raw inside to unleash it in tears, wasted on gloom and fool. the glee of the moment, the heat of the discussions, the depth of the words, the sharpness and bluntness of your handpicked phrases.

to know, and live. is tormentful and suicidal to thyself.

Change Your Today.

Hello my fellow readers.
uhhh. well, for a very long time it has been since i have updated. the previous post i did was more gibberish to everyone. it was a form of expression, and if not appreciated, too bad. go deal with it yourself!!

i'm gonna be putting up some pictures that i've failed to do so. uhh. yeah these pictures were from a very long time ago. The one above happens to be one with me, xenia and johanna! :D i must say that it was awesome that she came all the way from Germany down to Singapore to visit her friends. i had fun, and i'm sure she did! so, here's the pic!

i actually thought that i had posted one picture of the pavillon above, in my blog before. that happened to be somewhere else though. this, happened to be taken at the Singapore Botanical Gardens.

i know right! WOW, they have pavillions! how romantic!!
*rolls eyes*
the measures the government takes to increase the marriage and divorce rates, are simply mind-blowingly inappropriate. wait, this is from Gossip Girl. i mean, mind-blowingly desperate! okay, whatever. :D

School has been horrible, i promise you. when lessons become so boring, you tend to do what i did with my friends: Baoying, Sien and Sebastian; above. You see, in life we must always strike a balance. so, here's me being half fake with my smile. (isn't it so obvious its not real?) anyways, school really is bad. however, REDCAMP IS IN 2 DAYS!!! :D

so if you have failed to realise that very clear, obvious change in my hair? yes, its cut! I KNOW SOME OF YOU WERE SO OBLIVIOUS, you didnt even notice! but anyways, i'm happy with it. so if you find it weird, just pretend not to know me then! simple right, its not as if people adore me.....

which leads me to my next point. i think humans of the world are really creating self-indulgent situations only to find that they've dug their own graves. people aren't gonna pull you out of the mess everytime you make one. they say that your actions determine your outcome and consequences. well, then CHOOSE YOUR ACTIONS WISELY and don't do something of such low maturity, because its absurd and i for once, couldnt be bothered. not that i condole it, because i abhor such stupidity. think before doing something, is all i can say! :D

so, yeah. i shall end off here.
hope that this week goes by fine!
xoxo,
Marcus

Punctured Esteem, Aggravated Minds.

As she wallowed in self pity,

tears rolled from the slits of her eyes.

Upon the page it dropped,

crashing against the inanimate exterior, in frailty.
Wiping exposure away in actions of making do, 

the girl saw herself in a fix of replay - over and over it dragged.

As she saw friction of scratches - surface against heart,

an uncontrollable woman turned psychotic in a second of aggravation.

Strewn across the yard - a white sheath of forgiveness.

In which she caressed with love, 

yearning the raw yield for consolation of mistaken instruments.

Overcame by rejection it became, 

tough th' silk its signs unfolded,

akin to bitter hearts it held firm.

Softening withal, she cried hoping resolve.

Unconditional her stance stood, 

pondering, wandering, detached.

Esteem now punctured beyond heights.

With words, actions, wrongdoings thrown away,

questions existing surface, superficiality erased.

Bygones, were bygones. 

Recurrences, almost left behind.

Doings all forgiven, words all made void to thy,

why the world's legacy delivered itself to such unjust.

Will the actions and doings edify your heart?

With words, thoughts so spiteful, 

when minds become clouded by vile,

when bodies turn rigid for hate,

when humans evolve to animals, so vicious.

Those actions, and doings never form happiness,

even sweetened words hide from your truth.

The veil would tear, the mask will fall,

and that day, you'd question YOUR existence,

turn around, save the fate, you really must. 

Just For Keep's Sake.

AHHHH! HELLO PEOPLE!

okay. so, there above you see a flamingo. with another flamingo. you must be wondering: whats with the birds. cuz i did put a picture of flamingos the other time, as well. HAHA. well, i was searching on flickr for "GOSSIP" and i found this. then i realized they look so cute! and the colours are magnificent! :D anyways, talking about rumours.... i found this. it made me laugh. what lewedness a picture can potray. truly, a picture really holds more than a thousand words. :D heh!

people talk about you be it due to jealousy or detest, or well, for no reason too. Whether we like it, people will hate you. sparks fly, things start spreading. what good will it do to you? sometimes its better remaining low-key, away from drama, away from the notice of everyone. when you surface, people talk. rumours or gossip, both are negative, or would lead to negativity. i'm not begging the world to stop, because rebellious people like YOU would never do so. here's what i gotta say to you: be happy with what is of now, because push me once more and i'd show you who i really am. :D

ANYWAY! i'm sure you've heard about the new United States president cum next year January, Barack Obama would take over the more than hopeless George Bush. i'm glad Obama won. i would've hated Sarah Palin as vice president. considering she thinks that foreigen policy has something to do with the proximity of Alaska to Russia. and how ignorant she is, of course. so much so that i decided to put this flow chart below. Kiewu sent it to me! :D 

argh! so let me do a bit of music updates. Christina Aguilera has released her THE BEST OF album, alike all artists. This marks her 10th year of being in the music industry. I would like to add that there are new songs actually, not entirely new. they're just remixes of her old songs on this album such as "Genie 2.0", which was performed during the VMA's i think....she did it with "Keeps Gettin' Better" She also re-recorded some of the songs like "What A Girl Wants" and "Dirrty" as well as "Candyman". Its not really noticeable unless you're a Christina fan like me :D heh! so yeah. 

In other music news, David Archuleta has released his album as well. Well, not offically released, but it leaked. the tracks are AWESOME! :D i'm actually very pleasently surprised by how good they are. also, Shontelle has released her album, Shontelligence. I've not got time to give it a listen, but i hope its good! 

This  is a video of PARIS HILTON and ELLEN DEGENERS being BFF's. haha. i swear its so funny! haha. again, thanks to Kiewu for sending me this link. i hope you enjoy it! :D

with that, i shall tell you in one line how school has been. SAPPING,DRAINING,EXHAUSTIVE and utterly TIRING with DSS and all the tutorials. with Redcamp coming up. SIGH. i shall end off here! 

xoxo,
Marcus!

*Tag Replies*

Disclaimer: I will start replying tags weekly or as/whenever i feel like doing so in a post like this. Yeah. :D sorry for the very very late replies!

TAG REPLIES

MAG!: uhh? justice.........? HUH?

JASMINE: haha. never mind, its a small issue, dont wana keep harping on it. 

Nella~: Who're you Nella? but thanks for the video. :D

Syahid: Yes, i think it was me, and i think i saw you too hahah. 

Del: HELLO DELIA! haha. long time never talk eh? haha. hope you're doing fine too! xoxo!

Amar Koul: Hey Amar! haha. sure will do so!
your sister: hmmmm, you're not really my sister, are you? apologises for being such a....blonde 

hazlyn: sorry dear! haha. i changed it already! :D and you look FINE.... 

Spellcheck, Here It Goes!

hey darlings

first post for the month of November, and already we've past the third day. Well, school has started again, and tutorials have been yet, a chore. With law, statistics and macroeconomics tutorials to do, i'm simply driven up the wall, crazy. And yet, we have DSS(Excel) work to do, to which i diligently devoted to the whole of my precious sunday to complete, but nevertheless, failed to do so. Yes, what's new...

Below is a picture of your very like-able card symbols. yes, the spade, club, heart and diamond. With some electric "thing" around it. Well, this is actually Kirlian Photography. Its really interesting because the picture was taken at extremely high voltage and it seemed to emit an aura. They say that when 2 people are TRULY in love, and you take a Kirlian photograph 20 minutes into a conversation, you'd see a shade of pink around them! interesting eh?

So, this picture was taken last week(yes, the one below), Hazlyn, me and Jasmine. :D just gotta love em'! we were at Alumni for our Ambassador thing. :S oh well. anyways. thats just how handy a Macbook comes in. pfft. 

anyways, i wana rant about stupid online shows. Well, i watch online shows that are currently showing in US. for example, ANTM and Gossip Girl. Another would be Knight Rider. there are 5 in total, and i'm really annoyed sometimes that they dont come up. Well, to be truthful, i have no right to be. but lets take it from a one sided view. don't you get annoyed if you dont get your daily income?! yeahhh. i thought so. 

Right, i'm gonna get my hair cut. time to shush all those people with "your hair is too long" or those with "i like your previous hairstyle" because its still gonna be long. like it or not. :D with that, i conclude my directionless post, HERE!

xoxo,
Marcus!