Question Existing.

so today's post might not make ANY sense. NULL. seriously. so consider it a rant, a deposit of my fragmented mind. so let's begin: 

take a look around. do you have people close to you? perhaps. do you have people supporting you morally? definitely. do you know if they will share their roof with you if you're reduced? probably not. do you know their motives? definitely not. 

i know this sounds so familiar: you really don't know what you've got until you've lost it....wait, have you ever thought if you ever knew how bad it feels to have lost it, and regret losing it? sadistic, but still. isn't that part and parcel of life? feeling pain? shouldn't we be happy that we fucked up? no, right? and then again, you don't know what you've LOST until you've really lost it. but isn't that really true? right. so why are we punished for making mistakes? after all, its from them that we learn, right? hmmmm. 

but really, how many people would stop to give you a second chance? so my question is, do you REALLY know your friends, your lover, your parents, your best friend? you'd probably never find out, not unless your friends are brutally honest and you're totally retarded. don't people do things for purposes? so its a lie that there is no motive. so all our friends do things for motives. they're ALL making use of each other! what a bitchy, backstabbing world! so are we supposed to accept that motives now are classified into GOOD, BAD, and MEDIOCRE? and there again, there are hypocrites. aren't we ALL hypocritical? is it tolerable that we commit the act only by physical err? isn't it bad enough to THINK of backstabbing? but no, we're led to believe its fine as long as its not committed. 

and now we're faced with societies and systems that conform us. laws that are written in order to bring about harmony and dispel discord. but really, do we know anything about what we obey? amongst them, many other controversial topics which shall not be discussed here. but why do we obey something we don't condone either? they say "do not smoke here" and yet you do. do they not realise rebellion would up-rise sooner or later? 

and so we say we believe. but do you really know what you're reading or choosing to believe in? how can you believe in something such as a law, if you don't know WHY it was written or WHOM it was written by, or WHAT purpose did it evolve from? who are you to subject us to a law, a form that we must conform to. 

isn't it ironic that in life we promote harmony and peace but end up fighting wars? isn't the world just messed up? isn't life just a tale, a tall one told to make us believe in something that doesn't exist because we could all jolly well be an experiment of another, under observation. why does the big bang theory not coincide with that of religion and that of evidence? isn't it queer? haven't you not questioned who we are? 

never take for granted what you have. what DO we have, really? i don't know, and that's why I'm questioning myself now. do you?