Hello, Halloween.

Hi dear readers,

its been a while since i've updated. 

i shall do a very short entry right now. Halloween happens to be today! so for all party-goers, hope that you're out there right now having a ball of a time! With trick or treats going on in other countries like the US in about 12 hours time, i really wonder if Singaporeans would actually take up such a culture. imagine a group of 12 year-olds scaring an old woman. hmmmmm. Above is a picture of a pumpkin carved with ghouls, and with candles in it. how interesting and lovely! in the exact same manner as sadism is pleasurable, i forgot to add. :D

It comes also, to the end of the month. October! its been a long month for me in some aspects, yet short in others. however, i'm truly happy this month. i've gained a lot, in terms of experiences and understandings. new starts to old beginnings and old reforms to newer 'games'. its been eventful, and i'm glad that for all the things that had occurred be it ill or good. 

Next month cites highlights like the REDcamp5! it also highlights the preparation for common test though. its about time to get down to business. Next month also means 2 months away from a brand new year! :D i cant wait to enter November. lets hope that it goes well! :D

xoxo,

Marcus. 

Tina Fey as Sarah Palin AGAIN!

hi dears, i'm here just to do this!

here is the video of SARAH PALIN'S BEST IMPERSONATER! TINA FEY! she's wonderful, and i absolutely love this. Will Ferrell is acting in this one too. :D Enjoy!

well, fuck off then! :D

hi dearest friends of mine. 

yes, with this tone and Pink's "Why Did I Ever Like You" playing on repeat, i'm feeling sarcastic and coy. so please read those underlying messages carefully, bitch. 

so, i talked about double-crossing in my previous post. ah, who would've known how sly people are. you know, i always like having more friends? but if someone chooses to turn around andstab me - be it in the front or back-stabbed; i sometimes choose to be childish and resort to methods like this. well, my dear. we all know what are the terms where defamation is committed. so, please, use that little blonde brain of yours to think, for once. because you're not a very nice person after all! oh whoopie! i didnt know! ahh! wow, what a surprise, i'm so totally shocked. 

oh please, i never did like you. you know how it is when you dont like a person, you just DONT. yes, this is the reason why. and you're not the only one. ha. sluttish behaviour really. do remind yourself to look at yourself in the mirror before you step out with things like that. its stupid to tell others not to litter when you throw trash on the floor yourself... ah, but we all know, that so-called brain doesnt really register now, does it? take a step back, and look at what you've said and how it applies to you, if you were me, bitch. maybe then you'd be more sensitive. :D hmmm, thinking about it, i never defamed you. why would i? oh but who would've known you did....wow. amazing, again. 

awesome. now, i feel better. well, i always did because you just were that small thorn in my skin and an irritant. now that i've got a reason to be annoyed and not to like you, it makes it a whole lot better and easier i guess! i know, life can be a bitch. so can marcus. just watch me. oh. yeah. THIS IS ME, THIS IS HOW I AM, AND THIS IS HOW I WILL BE. DEAL WITH IT, OR FUCK OFF. 

xoxo,
Marcus Khoo. 

Emancipate Innaugural Emotions.

Hey darlings.

its been a while since i have last blogged. and i shall do a whole array of updates today. and if you have laid eyes on the picture below, you would realize that it looks like Red Alert 2. yes. It is. and the one below is actually the newest installment that would be released tomorrow! which also happens to be Deepavali!!! :D Red Alert 3 COMES OUT TOMORROW! ummmm, yeah i used to play RA2 and CS back in primary school. YES, I DID............. RA2 was released in 2001, and then i happened to miss out on games like DOTA. Anyway, do the comparison of the graphics and coolness. heh! :D

oh, i heard that in RA3, they put a lot of focus on naval units? like you can practically build anything in the sea. cool eh? lol. 

Firstly, let me leave you with a song by Shontelle. Shontelle is a Barbados singer, and lets hope she has the same success as Rihanna had, because her first two singles are amazing! "T-Shirt" and "Battle Cry" carry different vibes, but still groove-able. Here's "Battle Cry" AND "T-Shirt" on youtube for you! 

BATTLE CRY

T-SHIRT

And then comes these group of super random pictures that happened to have been taken in the Ambassador's Room with obviously the ambassadors. Jasmine and Benedict are in them. we were being so ever retarded taking self shots, hence, the products of queerness. HAHA! look at my eyes in the pic below! LOL!

I really like the picture below. not only the effect, but we all look so happy amidst the knowledge that SCHOOL HAS STARTED!!! gahhhhs! The horror of school!! ahhhhh! Okay, Whatever. And since i'm talking about Ambassadors, RED Camp 5 is coming up soon! hope that all sec4 students have signed up! 19-21st November, which is only about 22 days away i think. i didnt count! hahahaha. 

Ahhh, since i've been so boring, i decided to leave you with a short snippet of The Noose! yes, the local serial which i personally feel has been the best sitcom ever done by Mediacorp. i have to applaud Michelle Chong for her versatility in playing a hostess, a brand-whored Barbarella, a maid, a principal, a mother, an auntie, and many more roles. In this video, she plays a mother who is so concerned. do watch! it may not quirk you into laughter, but it surely would put a smile on that face of yours! :D

Alrights! Some news about entertainers. Paris Hilton is ready to release her new single, "Paris For President". Yes, its presumably quite blonde.pun intended, heh. and Christina Aguilera is ready to release her new video for "Keeps Gettin' Better", and below is one of the pictures from her shoot. i absolutely LOVE Christina for how she keeps re-inventing herself. she's truly amazing. :D

And lastly, but not the very least, here's a picture of me so that you're sure i havent got a zit breakout yet! =X oh, please dont go cursing me now! haha. anyways, i just HAD to include a picture of myself okay! i stayed up till 5am today to complete my DSS aka. Excel work that needed to be passed up tomorrow. 4 hours for 2 pages. *rolls eyes* OMFG.

Its about time i end my very lengthy and directionless post. i just wana say that double crossing is something obviously wrong. Practice what you preach, do what you want others to do back to you. If you get warned and become deliberately ignorant, you're in dire need of an attitude shaking. WAKE UP!! the world's not gonna grovel and mourn that your existence has ceased. We're gonna move on from you, as how life draws us forward. DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF WHILE YOU STILL HAVE THE CHANCE TO. you've heard this more than i need to reiterate. Don't wait for what you have to be lost, because it would NEVER EVER come back. If it does? It would NEVER be the same. 

I always told myself. A bird in the hand is better than two in the bush. Be content with what you have, and leave the past to be the past. As a friend told me: let bygones be bygones. I have always been there for you. ALWAYS. 

with that, i end my post here. With only 9 posts in October thus far, my blog is far from alive.

xoxo,
Marcus. 

selflessness.

sometimes you just shout out loud hoping someone hears you.
but you realize all you hear is your own echo, repeatedly.
like a wave, crashing over, burrowing deep within - strong on impact.

saying one thing, meaning the direct opposite.
a sentence un-thought about, spillovers un-ascertained.
feelings uncared, friends unliked, person loved.

delved into topics unconventional, words spoken so caressed in love.
haunting replays, eerie imaginations, emphasized paranoia.
wanting and yearning with such hunger, sufficed by a sentence, void of actions.

time alone will deal with injustice and fault, anyway.

Light Falls Undown.

The song: A House Is Not A Home. It reminds me oddly of how i feel toward families being functional. Statistics proven, studies done - 90% of all families are dysfunctional. Sometimes i think that i am so very fortunate to have such a good family. Despite the umpteen disadvantages i've been posed with, making the best of it is the only thing i can do. Sometimes being positive in life really works wonders for yourself. Its whether you bear to bow down that ego of yours...

I have decided to blog about this after reading Ernest's blog. Sheltered, we really are. Personally, i know many of my friends who have that silver spoon, never before have they seen the real world and its dangers. Doing things without pondering over, never worrying about the consequences of their actions. Within this safe harbour meticulously built by our forefather, we needn't worry about gun, crimes or even murders. Singapore is one of the safest places on earth, thanks to the thousands of ridiculous laws. And confining yourself with a mentality that you'd stay here forever is simply childish and too fairy-tale-like. With so much protection provided by the government, its ironic how our society still stands so prominently in the world. 

I've always said that my current generation is socially handicapped. With little conversational and social skills because of the pampering that we've adopted, with the "crying to parents" reflex; youths become over-reliant on the government with great expectancy, as they age into adulthood. Complacency, that of a welfare society also adds this value flaunted verbally, and on its surface on many teenagers. I would like to say that we are very similar to Ostriches. Yes blonde's, the bird that buries its head in the sand. However, because of how we have such queer characteristics and combinations such as a world-class tourist hub, yet our service industry isn't flourishing; i really think that we're more like flamingo's that copy ostriches. Holding our heads high with no substance. We're merely..."rojak" i would say. An odd combination. 

Sometimes i ask myself what does our nation portray to foreigners when the word "Singaporean" gets conjured. Singlish - the "language" we're proud of? Perhaps its the 2 Integrated Resorts, casino hub maybe? Lets be more positive with things like Education hub? But does it really matter? We're gonna impact the world. Our market is global not domestic. We're gonna go to USA, Australia, UK and we're gonna work THERE, where we're not sheltered. We're gonna do things independently. We're not gonna have penalties on drug possession. We're not gonna have such strict laws. We might as well start learning things from young, not to do it rather than be so innocently blown over when we're 28. 

All said and done, i guess we're only left with time that would shake them up. Lets hope that my friends would become more urgent about their lives. This life we live in is like a time bomb waiting to explode. Until it explodes, we're only left to hone ourselves for the future. And when it does? we'll realize that we're on our own. I hope this makes sense. 

The Sad Songs In My Head.

Like a desert where its hot and its cold, life too deals you cards which dont always strike a combination, or a chord. With little to want, comes little to worry. With little to worry comes little to bother, which comes little to show care, and concern. With not only temperature that flactuates, change also occurs. Landscapes form with sand dunes and patterns, even the most intricate and/or ugliest of all - it still is one. Every one of them counts. 

Oh Marcus, what do you expect? a question i do ask myself more than frequently. Usually, i come back with a "i dont know" or "well, just happiness and to be blessed". but truly, is that enough? are we at all satisfied with what we have? is it wrong to want more? as below-mentioned in my previous post, bipolarism. There are always two sides to a coin. Its only which side you view it from, and when you choose to fix your roots and not change or listen up; we become rigid, unloving, cold, inhumane, fools, and many other horrible things. I dont deny that i havent been that person many a time. But i'm only human (just like you), so dont go picking on me and pretending that you're so innocent too. We all make these mistakes in life. This is one of the flaws. 

I dont flaunt myself by acting as if i'm solid and emotionless. i'm full of emotions, easily hurt due to sensitivity and openness. Naivety some might call it, i call it being true to another. If you don't hit it off with me, we're just not on the right topics. And that is why some of my friends realize that my person tends to be louder and voluble. We're all human, we all get hurt with words, and actions. Sensitivity is in the form of actions by showing that you understand and care based on discretion. If sensitivity is void, so is care, and when care is void? yes, so is love. This paragraph might not be professionally written or factual in full, but its what i believe and how i think. Respect who i am and what my beliefs are. 

Today was great. I looked forward to it so much. Elated and overjoyed for the later part of the day, i went by my dull, mundane life. And when things actually did turn bad despite me hoping my best it wouldnt; i truly lost the meaning of my life, shivering even when it wasnt cold at all. Voice quivering as if i had seen a ghost. And as if the night had cut short its performance, my hopes and esteem dipped to its low. And as midnight approached (that of now), tears slowly found its way down the face of the heart. With almost nothing left - when you're that single,simple person who has shed your shell to the world; you're hopeful that someone would come around to pick you up, and give you a smile, pat you on the back, crack a joke, cackle and laugh before ending in a smile and a well deserved sleep.

I'm sorry it didnt happen to me, and that i couldnt do that to you either. i guess that today, wasnt that great afterall....

For Boys, We Stand As.

hello darlings. 

i'm here, yet again. to update, well this time i would touch on a bit of how tiresome school has been. with only 2 days that have past, its draining me already. thinking about how we only have to attend lectures in week 1 and how exhausted i am, i'm worrying for week 2. ha. anyways, school has been welcoming, partly due to the fact that i've been meeting my dear Ambassadors. :D i love you guys!!!

and today i wana touch on the topic of provision. well, not exactly touching on it, but rather just a little rambling. Distraction of which we consider ill happens to fall on the same line as disrespect. Well, not clearly or directly disprecpecting, but we know how it is to feel dishonoured. Truly, we would like to be treated to some well-deserved mannerisms when we run our everyday lives. Like i last mentioned, its not the ACT, but the WILLINGNESS to act. its the INITIATIVE to do so. and provision requested is void as how we wouldnt wana ask for a "sorry". it cancels out the effect. Whats the point of saying something you dont mean? eh...?

And when we dwell on this idea a little more, we'd realise that things are always in a jumble. Just like how literature was taught to me of being bipolar on most issues, i apply this to my life. Bipolarism or that of more views always occur, and shaking it off with a "i don't care" wouldnt do justice to the situation, and wouldnt reap the optimal outcome. Well, the potential of it could be stretched, and resolving it with democracy is always better than with communism. Face it, you wouldnt want your 1000 bucks to be reduced to 50 bucks would you...

So, with this said, i really dont wana summarize my points because its very direct on its own. Being a person who grows with age, you dont expect me to be in the know of life's downfalls or all of its luxuries. I can only try my best to be who i am, its what i'm best at doing. And when i fail to do so, like everyone does. Maybe we might start practising what we preach and be better people like listening and learning from each other. See, life isn't only dull and vile, suprises and rewards do get treated in due time. We only need to look at it from a WANTING and WILLING angle, to be better people for each other. :D

I don't expect this message to be totally understood by everyone. Its vague in nooks, sharpened at some corners. I just hope that this changes a bit of your thinking about everything in our lives. With that, i conclude this post here. 

xoxo,
Marcus. 

If We Had One More Chance...

hello darlings

if you havent already heard, Marcus is back from Melbourne, with no more pictures worth posting because....they're just mediocre. heh. 

anyways, whilst i was away i have been doing some thinking about issues so ever prevalent in the area of extinction of our world. if you happen to be watching current affairs in this half-sick world, you'd realise that the US Presidential Debates are occurring. That Barack Obama is leading in the debate. You would also know that the Australian dollar has dropped to 1.047 in comparison to 1 Singapore dollar. you would also know that the US has headed for a Global Recession and they even call it the modern day Depression. Um, a global recession isnt as painless as it sounds, by the way. 

But i was thinking, something that we have heard more than enough. Global Wamring. What does any of that have to do with combating global warming? or is it even combat-able, in the first place, at this stage? i, for one would not like to live in a world headed nose-first, straight for permanent extinction. but it seems that thats the direction we're headed, don't you think so? with that said, you'd probably realise the efforts that we're putting into conserving the environment. 

I dont know if anyone has actually watched Al Gore's "An Inconvenient Truth" but to be very honest, it was really WOWing because of how he delivered the facts. We're in a situation thats almost too late to salvage. Yet, with these issues impending and of so much more importance, we still have Barack fighting with John over who to be president. We have Ben Bernanke cutting interest rates, pumping 700 Billion dollars into the financial market. but seriously. which is more crucial. the market's survival or our existence? 

i'm not saying that we're not doing anything. i'm simply saying that time isnt on our side, and its just really frightening to realise that we're digging our own comfortable graves because when the pieces are down, we're gonna start complaining again. we're gonna realise that we've made such an err. but when that time comes, nothing we do would save us from our well-deserved consequences. what can we do? nothing i guess, but just wait for judgement. idk why this sounds so...mythical scary, but really...its the only thing to do. right?

Next issue...

anyway, before it gets even more boring. lol. i was watching "The Break Up" again on the plane. and i realised how predictable their fights were! haha. and i just told myself i needed to say this. You know how sometimes you have fights with your loved ones? really, thats just a form of communicating. and when you leave him/her and choose to be egoistic and not try to mend a relationship, it makes no difference than you being stupid. right, that didnt make much sense, but when you put efforts, you'd realise that the person is really your partner. because even though you fight and quarrel over the stupidest things, you still love him/her, you still miss the quarrelling when you've walked away from the table. 

and like it was said in the movie, its the willingness to act upon it, not the things that are done on its physical outcome solely. it touches a person when you do something with initiative thats sweet. just like doing something with your loved one, even if it were just clearing the trash. its simply blissful because its with the person, not the act alone. it just melts the heart, even if it were a guy's. we're all humans after all. all homo sapiens have feelings, emotions. lying about controlling them is just hypocritical and unjust toward you, showing your shame of owing up. 

personally, i feel that as time goes by, people tend to understand and compromise, making a relationship last. flaws that were ever so dull and painful would become gems that shine and stand out, making the person so special, so unique, so lovable. and its these characteristics that make you truly fall head over heels, in love. If love, to you is to search for the right person, and giving up when it doesnt work out the first time, taking chances as you get by and by without committing; then you might as well call stealing and robbing from banks, borrowing temporarily. And when you try to reduce the severity of the extent your actions demean you, you're only making yourself less worthy of respect, which....speaks really badly about yourself. 

so above is a song by Beyonce, entitled "If I Were A Boy". Its just released, well, not released yet, but its really good. Originally writeen by JC Bean. However, i like both versions. so i decided to leave you with Beyonce's video. The song's message is actually really powerful. lyrically very subtle in words, the song outlines the discrimination of women in comparison to men. heart-wrenching, really. 

well, thats all for today. i hope you get my flow. such a mystery,an unnerving enigma. 

xoxo,
Marcus. 

Stained Hearts, At Distance.

hello darlings. 

here's yet another update for the month of October, and from Australia. Been a few days since i last updated and here is what i have captured with my lovely SLR. i really am glad that i have, even as lousy as it may be, a DSLR. truly, the shots that come out without editing, are so beautiful. :D so the above picture was taken along the Great Ocean Road, from Geelong toward Torquay i think. :D heh!

and as this Spring happens to be a super cold one, its not suprising how i wore 3 layers to go see the cute little penguins on Phillip Island just yesterday! furthermore, it rained at night, and i could safely say the temperature dropped to a low of 9 degrees, yet again. anyways, the picutre above...umm. well yeah. needless to say :D 

i apologise herein, for the large pictures. i dont know why they're not resizeable. or rather, i couldnt really be bothered to. i mean, after spending a great deal of time editing them, i dont have much patience to resize them in blogger. whatever! so, above and below happen to be a lighthouse. i initially wanted to do a Black & White shot, but i 'd probably not edit it B&W. the picture below, is a good one though. you could save it and play with it :D

Lets run through. On Sunday, my dad drove all the way to Geelong, Torquay, Anglesea and Lorne. He didnt have the stamina to go further due to the winding of the roads. However, we headed back to South Warnita where we stayed the night at a friends' place. The next day, (Monday), we proceeded to Phillip Island. The Grand Prix was just over there, so it was really crowded still. However, they were clearing. Tuesday was a cold, cloudy and a very bad day in short,for photography. Thankfully, the weather cleared up and the sky cleared to a nice shade of blue. :D Below is a tree stump! YAY!!!

I awkwardly feel as if the picture below has been taken before. i guess many people love taking photographs of the jetty/pier/idk-what-else-you-call-it. I edited this black and white to make the picture stand out better compared to a normal coloured picture. so, yeah. somehow, again, reminds me of Liyun. :D

Continuing from where i left, the day at Phillip's Island turned out memorable with many passing curtains of rain. The picture below was taken at The Nobbies. The sun was setting and this picture was really bright at first. clearly, it wasnt edited wonderfully. but oh well, i'm still working on my photoshop skills. :D heh. 

And the last picture, which reminds me vividly of some wonderful background picture used on the covers of "My Daily Bread" or some Christian Bible Study books. LOL! the gull happened to fly past. and it also coincidentally happened to look like an eagle :D YAY! i love this shot. hope you like it too! :D

ahhh, and so. Today (Tuesday), we drove back from Phillip's Island to Mebourne City. Did some shopping. but didnt find much. a little annoyed actually. tsk! i also met up with Justin! :D he said he might be coming to Singapore. awesome stuff then! 

tomorrow i'm gonna be going to Glenwavery to visit my cousin and niece! :D CANT WAIT! heh. and... yeah. i cant wait to come to Singapore too. there's just that special someone i miss so dearly. 

xoxo,
Marcus.

Dee-Dee-Dum.

hello darlings.

Melbourne has been treating me fine. i wonder how people survive the spring season, going out with just a pair of shorts and a tee-shirt. its friggin' cold please, and since tonight's 9 degrees celcius! *shivers a long shiver*

anyways, i'm gonna be posting quite a few pictures today, so here they are. i will try to write a bit on each picture, unless i've got nothing to say absolutely. alright, so today, the 4th of October 2008 happens to be Singapore Day in Melbourne. so, me being ever so uhhmm patrotic, decided to go! :D the proof is right above! heh. 

and so, i spent almost my whole day at Singapore Day, and then proceeded to take some photographs of Yarra River and.. then proceeded to Clifton Gardens to snap some shots of the trees and stuff like that. below are the pictures taken, which kinda remind me of Liyun's photos of Botanic Gardens. :S heh. 

anyways, i've decided that i'm not gonna go surf tomorrow. well, firstly, its really cold. next, i'm afraid i'll hit the reef and die. subsequently, i wana spend my time....shopping! heh. lastly, i have no last reason. lol. i'll try surfing next time. hah. anyways, continuing with the photos:

anyways, i went to Toorack yesterday. Toorack, happens to be one of the wealthiest suburbs in Melbourne according to Weijin. and, true enough, i saw Bentley's and Ferrari's along the street. yikes. anyways, after doing lots of window shopping, Weijin and i went for dinner! and we ate that dish you see below. it happens to be a speciality dish - Chicken wings in eeg yolk. I KNOW, sounds disgusting. lol. but it was good :D

anyways, continuing the photos of Clifton Gardens, this was taken and i thought it looked really neat! like the rows of trees and all. reminds me distinctly and somehow vididly of my trip to Japan where we captured that famous row of trees. :D very nice. anyway, while i was snapping away, a wedding was in procession at the right side of the gardens! heh. 

this is..umm, a picture of a flower? LOL! well, when i was walking toward the house, saw this. and decided to snap it. the sun was shining on it perfectly, and i didnt edit this picture at all. :D love the colour. i guess we only get to see such richness abroad! haha. 

AND THIS! the setting sun. i was really wow-ed by the colours. it was breathtaking. and this, right at your doorstep really. i took this from the appartment's balcony. really beautiful. i love it! 

anyways, tomorrow i would be going to the Great Ocean Road, AGAIN! :D hahaha. and i'm actually excited to, because of how i wana capture beautiful coastal sceneries! i'm such a crazy person. anyways, thats all for today! hope you liked the pictures! :D

xoxo,
Marcus.

Thats Above The Love.

hello darlings.
if you didnt remember, i'm actually in Melbourne now! and i'm blogging about my first day in Melbourne. :D (to inform you, again, i'll be away until the 12th) so yeah. anyways, to kick things off, Melbourne is only 2 hours ahead of Singapore, but i feel like i've parted with a tonne in Singapore. :S heh. anyways.

so Weijin and i arrived in Melbourne and we headed toward the city, where we wandered around aimlessly, really. We walked the streets early in the morning, and hence, i realised that Melbourne was home to graffiti. well, at least the city area is! ha. here's one CLASSIC example. pun intended. :D oh, a new month has started. :D YAY!
and it came to the time of the day that you got hungry in the morning. Breakfast. crazily, we ate YES. Krispy Kreme! i know right? total madness to eat three doughnuts in the morning with a cup of hot latte, and then continuing a long and very tedious walk around the city. heh. but we managed to meet Ira in the end. she lives on the 41st level, and i managed to get this photo (below) and the first photo (right above)

i'm having lots of hands on over here. bunking with Weijin in the living room, sleeping on somewhat of a couch isnt the most luxurious of all lodgings, but its worth the while, especially since i'm gonna meet up with all my loved ones! :D meanwhile, i havent forgotten those i left temporarily behind in Singapore! thank you all for your safe wishes! and i really miss you all!!

i'm gonna end off here!
xoxo,
Marcus.
p.s. i watched gossip girl somehow. :D whoa!



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