Weary.

open up.
light shining through.
i want, i wana know.
so come on, show me.
hold back no more.
see the real me.
its who i really am.
its what i really want.
its a person beyond the facade.
an image that is still fresh.
a bud tender and young
a dying flower no more.
the fresh milk, not stale.
a heart pumping with life.
with blood so alive and rich.
in blessing, love and truth.

i call on you.
hold withal no more.
emotions on high, let it fly.
a page unwritten , now filled.
a book closed on its end.
a life met with a consequence.
a touch of gold.
a sense of satisfaction.
a guilty pleasure.
a heart broken.
a pang so deep inside.
yet incomparable to the trust.
a raindrop of love.
a sea of life.

something lingers inside.
love? hate? distrust?
it rides above the distant laughter.
its different, its unorthodox.
yet, its so true, so real.
its finally here, yet it still is so far.
frustration, not lies.
hiding truths, covering them up.
patching a trap.
not as bad as it seems.
but it still seems surreal.
its not right. it seems wrong.
but yet, it feels alright. it feels right.
life. its mysteries. its downfalls.
hassle. unreasonable. incredulous.
mystical. powerful. perpetuation.
skeptical. impossible. enigmatic.
heavenly. smitten. fariytale.

the constraints.
the pains.
the difficulties
the truth.
the disbelief
the love.
the person.
the character
the values.
the complexity.
the disaster.
the hopes.
the wonder.
the anguish.
the shattered.
the delightful.
the craze.
the eccentric.
the implausible.
the frivolous.
the permeation.
the deja vu.
the selfish.
the afraid.
me.



another chapter. another phase. another disaster. another problem. another me. i'm posted with an issue. its not easy. but surely. my blog is disposition as a means to release any inner feeling without feeling compelled and unwillingly stressed into a situation whereby i need to be upfront. i dont personally like it that way. thank you for respecting my sole decision made by my discretion.

its the wrong time. nursing a sickness again, not feeling a sense of health. yet, dealing with such issues pertinent to a necessary and prime situation is essential. it may be tough. it may be tedious and tiresome. but all calamities need to have a route out. and i will find it. on my own. life isnt easy to live. i agree. precautions must be made. but when all else fails, attending to it on time learning it first handedly is key. and i abide to that. temptations might rise up. but i think that it comes down to me. giving in isnt always the easiest way to elucidate such a crop up. i know it all.

i just hope that i find a way our of this, and nurse myself back to health in time.