Selfish.

disappointment. its what i'm releasing from the bottom of my heart. its not simply the fact that i'm not content. its just the expectation that things could've been better. just better. the way it came out. the things at the side all make a difference. but not if i'm feeling this disappointment, no, not how it did come out right.

pathetic. sad. i dont know what else to really say. i'm just suddenly at a loss. i didnt blog for 2 days. been really busy and tired. i just couldnt find the time to do so. and now that i do, i blog such depressing and sad stuff. its not good for me, not what i want you to read. i shouldnt be doing this. but what other choice do i have?

anyway. poly xperience went fine. i got kinda irritated a few times but i shant elaborate. yesterday was kinda...bad as well. had this horrible abdominal pain. like i had a bomb ticking inside my stomach, with sharp spokes hurting me too.

watched Red Cliff. 2.5 hours long. it was LONG. but not draggy. it moved quite consistently. it was really good too. i liked it. miraculously. lol. despite my awfully painful stomach. but still. oh well. that was yesterday. things change within hours, lest, minutes.

so, leaving you with a song is the only best thing i can do to salvage this horribly boring and inappropriate rant. here's Nikki Flores with a song entitled "Selfish". i like it.


aites. thats all.
love.