Undertonic Lamentations

sometimes i should just die,
cease to affect those around me.

hello darlings.
i decided to be a bit more myself today. that is, emo. i dont know whats wrong with me ever since i stepped into my house. i wanted to go out to meet Ilona for a chat and probably a movie. but no, i couldn't bring myself to go out. firstly, i had tonnes of dejecting revision stacks on POA to flip through, thoroughly. and i know that there are people who are enjoying themselves right now as i cuddle up ever so cosily in bed to revise how to do an adjustment for depreciation. something to speak of today that is fun.

today, i met Madalene for lunch. we went to Holland. talked a lot! ha. it was fine. i felt really tired. somehow. i know it didnt translate in terms of body language Maddie, but yeah i was. anyways. i came home and was supposed to meet Lona in town to watch Sex And The City. who the hell cares if i'm not 18. like hello i've snug in, like no one has ever done so before? *rolls eyes*. anyways i ended up staying at home. so so so very comfy. (: very sarcastic too..

i dont have much to say today. tennis was fun today. we learnt the right surfing. like finally. but i'll need a lottt of practice. hah. oh yeah. erm. GSS is on. havent shopped my fill. obviously. it lasts for 2 frickkin months! i feel the urge to get a pair of jeans. i dont know who would be so uber nice to accompany me, but i'd love someone to.....tomorrow. (:

i feel like i've lost touch with my dears. Johanna! Weijin, all so far away. i miss you guys. )): dearly. even though i've never met Jo, i still find a part of me not right. i wanted to say "incomplete" but thats not the right word to describe it. hah.

shalt end here. long and draggy boring post toady. blog hits are starting to fall. inadvertently. ahh. whatever.