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Song Jiving To Right Now: One Step At A Time - Jordin Sparks


hey people.
valentine's day gone by. and today's cecelia's chalet starting day. ok. i swear, this blog entry's starting is horrible. anyhoots. lets talk about yesterday's V. Day.

yes. the very coveted perfect lover isnt gonna be there forever. this valentine's day, i wandered down the streets and found the annoying sight of innumerable lovers. i really wonder whats with these people? every girl was either carrying:
1. a stalk of rose (oh, how sad. only one?)
2. 2 or more up to 5. (sigh. at least she wasnt THAT cheap)
3. half a dozen roses! (nice number huh)
4. a dozen red roses!! (yip-pie i'm ecstatic)
5. more than a dozen roses (wow. he must be really rich)
6. ugly sun flowers (WHY SUNFLOWERS?!)
7. a ferrero rocher made flower bouqet.

well. technically, i should feel really lousy considering i never gave or received any. i mean, seriously. in every direction you turn, sweet loving couples practicing their "hand around waist", or "hand lock" techniques. why? does this world have no privacy? lol. i guess sometimes, people rather flaunt it huh. well. this doesnt disgust me. haha. what disgusts me is the whole "oh, i dont have a home, lets smooch here" thing. its kinda repulsive. i mean, a typically "hot" couple that does that would be like a good example of "this is how to kiss, hollywood actors." but those that look beyond gangster-ish, its just really overwhelming. you just cringe, grimace. thats your NATURAL reaction. lol.

right. okay. i didnt do much this valentine's day. lol. i just went for a search for people i knew in town. was hoping i'd chance upon a rare, possibly match-made couple. but, no i didnt. lol. how sad right? yea right. i'd rather not.

well. below all my volubleness, i'm actually a bit disappointed. i'm also a bit depressed. and i'm VERY confused. i really dont know what i should do from here. its like my predicament has no open routes for me. its like i need to fight this myself. i dont know. its actually rather stupid. you know how sometimes, when you need something so badly, its never there? but sometimes when you dont really need it, its there? its the whole "I NEED A DAMN CAB" situation! i mean seriously. isnt that like murphy's law or something? lol. okay. whatever. lol. like why does one moment, something seem so strong and big. and then the next, its like a new wave comes, at the old has disappeared. its like what you had was gone. its like... I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE! eurgh.

you know what? valentine's day 2008 has been a tiresome and lethargic, very horrendous day for me. i need to take a breather. maybe the chalet comes at the right time. i just need to get away. stop fussing about life so much. some problems of mine tend to be really stressful, but i just push em' aside. maybe its time i solved them so that there wont be any culmination at the end of the day.

anyways. looking forward to chalet tomorrow. fuck it. i'm just so worn out. ):
till then.