That Broken Down Radio.

as i wonder to myself.
my heart finds a door
so cold to the touch.
so warm to the eyes.
as i wonder even more,
a reason of speculation overcomes.
a sea of doubt, a deluge of betrayal.
and i cover it up, in anguish.



hello people.
been listening to emo songs. lol. have you heard Secondhand Serenade's "Maybe"? i think its a nice song. Secondhand Serenade is an alternative band, and the music happens to be mostly very emo. and yeah, their single now, "Fall For You", which is even more emo. hah. right. and of course. thanks to Sara Haniz. "Mary Jane" by The Click Five. yeah. its another sad sad song. sigh. my mood is so so unright.

stopping work already. cant mann the desk for so long being a idiot. lol. i guess its just not the right job for me. hmmm. well, like i listed in the previous post, my new options. hah. righty.

something's bothering me really. badly. sigh. you know how sometimes you just always jump into conclusion? i mean, its not good, its not right to assume. but sometimes you subconscious mind over-dominates your conscious one, and hence, you start thinking about stuff you shouldnt even be thinking of. its just a thorn in my skin. its irritating me. i dont even know why. i just am so vulnerable to it. sigh. bitch wound. lol. i dont know why sometimes people just refuse to explain themselves on the spot and procrastinate. its so fucking irritating. sometimes you just need a REASON. not a "i'll tell you next time". its not what i need to pacify me and get me through the day. arghh. whatever.

I Nine has come out with their new single on iTunes, like, finally. lol. "Seven Days Of Lonely" is a song that most Avril Lavigne fans would love. i thought she sounded a little like Avril at the beginning. like really similar. lol. go give it a listen. i think you'll like it.

Leona Lewis is releasing her next single, "Footprints In The Sand" with a B-side of "Better In Time". sigh. i like footprints in the sand. its really powerful. its a very amazing power ballad. its very very "moving" as she said. Better in time is a "no,no" for me. lol. dont like it.

if you havent heard, Lindsay Lohan has done a Marylin Monroe photoshoot - nude. yes. Lindsay is finally getting back onto the path to recovery and back to be an awesome artist. i dont know why i even love Lindsay so much. haha. she has pigmentation, isnt that very skinny. hmmmm. lol. anyways. wishing her all the best in her future. (:

Someone recommended me another song, Its by Courtney Jaye i think, and its entitled "Can You Sleep". basically, its one of another emo song. you know the thing about me, is that i dont really appreciate lyrics. i appreciate the tone of the song. how its composed. i dont care about the lyrics unless its really corny, and really cheesy. lol. so yeah. if i ever make errors in mistaking a love song for an emo breakup song, i apologise. lol.

got my teeth done today. gosh. he's brutal. he did a 14 chain i think?! on my top teeth. its hurting like shit now. i swear, he's sadistic. lol. he was like "is it tight?" and i was like :"YES!!" and he laughed and said "good". lol. idiot. knowing well that i wont be able to eat properly for the next few days. grrrr. anyways, its give and take. sacrifices need to be made, as usual.

i'm sorry for being so weird and random today. i shall end this post here.